The Importance Of Moving Forward

My mother always told me to never look back... but I've always been fixated on looking back to see how far I've come. This kind of reflection I think is healthy. It's nice to look at your milestones and be proud of your accomplishments - as long as you're not stuck living in "the good old days". You see on TV all the time, the once-high school football star, reliving the glory days. I actually caught the beginning of a new reality show called "High School Reunion" or something, and this guy, in his 40's said that high school was the best time of his life. Of. His. Life. I felt bad for him.

I am guilty of living in the past, and not just for reflection's sake. For as long as I can remember, until very recently, I was convinced that I would end up marrying someone from my past. I am on the brink of my 29th birthday, and until very recently have only attracted men who made me feel unworthy of love - to marry one of them would be a tragedy. Facebook was the death of me - getting in touch with old crushes, old flames, all the while wondering "is he the one?" and every time I saw a relationship status say "Married" on one of my exes profiles, I was crushed a little bit more.

When I say I don't have all the answers, I truly mean it. I've been on my spiritual path (well, knowingly so) for the last 9 months - which is pretty new really. Opening your mind is a beautiful thing, however, there is one downside. Once you know how good it can be, it hurts so much when you fall off your path. I fell off my path last weekend, and I haven't been able to forgive myself for it yet. I went back to being the girl I used to be, for just a split second, and have spend several days beating myself up for it. I know it's a small setback, and each new day is an opportunity to reinvent myself for the better, but I haven't let it go. I'm mad at myself for letting it happen, and I'm disappointed in myself because I know better.

This brings me to the title of today's post: the importance of moving forward. I cannot stress this enough as I am currently embodying the ramifications of living in the past. Do something every day you can be proud of. (For me, it should really be cleaning my room and sorting through my clothes which has been on my to-do list for weeks) And always strive for more for yourself. I don't mean money, which is what so many of us work toward.... just... better. Become a better version of you, surround yourself with people who will support your growth and who are growing themselves, and if necessary, sever ties with people with whom you allow yourself to regress (especially if it's regression into harmful behaviour). There is always a chance for a brighter tomorrow - and the power to grasp it is in your hands. Don't do like I've done the last few days - forgive yourself when you fall off the spiritual wagon. Until you do, it's hard to want to reboard it, and life is SO much better when you do. I'm hoping that by sharing this with you, that I'll be able to let go myself, and thus move forward.

Wishing you all warm and wonderful things and most of all - love from yourself and everyone around you.

Seena Beana